Jesus is better than everything
It's a slow process, but I'm learning that any of the plans that Jesus has for me—no matter how difficult or ridiculous or hurtful they may seem—are always better than the best plans I could ever dream up on my own.
It hit home again when I read this verse today:
"What he gives in love is far better than anything else you'll find..."
After 15 months of trusting God, I naively thought things would get easier at this point. I'm learning that I now need to trust God more, and with everything in me—not worrying about how to make things work or force my way through life.
It's not about me, no matter how much I'd like it to be. I just have to keep reminding myself that Jesus is better than everything.
You're cheating on God. If all you want is your own way, flirting with the world every chance you get, you end up enemies of God and his way. And do you suppose God doesn't care? The proverb has it that "he's a fiercely jealous lover." And what he gives in love is far better than anything else you'll find. It's common knowledge that "God goes against the willful proud; God gives grace to the willing humble."
So let God work his will in you. Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and he'll be there in no time. Quit dabbling in sin. Purify your inner life. Quit playing the field. Hit bottom, and cry your eyes out. The fun and games are over. Get serious, really serious. Get down on your knees before the Master; it's the only way you'll get on your feet.
James 4:4–10