More important than the work you do and things you build is the condition of your heart. You can solve most complex problems, build intricate systems, and surpass your peers with your development skills, but if your heart isn't in the right place, you haven't won.
What is your heart full of?
For some reason, I thought today would be an instant ending to all of the difficulties, frustration and sadness I've felt for the past 15 months. I was definitely wrong.
The dryer had been going for nearly an hour and all I wanted was some sleep. I was tired. Worn out. Then came the nagging, annoying little squeak. It started small, then developed into a large, rhythmic, obnoxious scrape of metal on metal. It had been a long day and i was ready for bed, so i did what any normal human being would do. I ignored it.
It didn't work.
I like to be in control, to know how things are going to work out. I want to plan and think through all of the options. While this is ultimately good, it can be bad if I'm not being obedient and following what God is leading me to do.
"Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat; I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I'll show you how. Self-help is no help at all.
—(Matthew 16:24-26 MSG)
Below are some of the notes that really stood out or hit home during SLC. I felt like so many things were spoken directly to me—it was crazy. I'll probably add a few more sessions later when I have some time!
Jesus really does love me a whole lot.
If he were here, he'd chase me down the street while laughing deep belly laughs. He'd walk with me down the sidewalk and let me talk about my day. He would give me a huge bear hug, smile and tell me everything's gonna be ok.
This theme of being a religious person, but not knowing Jesus has been on my mind so strongly the past few days. The crazy thing is when you're in the middle of it — being religious — you aren't even aware of it!
I know, because I used to be like that. I was raised in church, worked in church for years, always doing the right thing. I was more concerned about making people behave right. I was more focused with the outward appearance rather than the heart of a person.
I wanted them to stop cussing because I didn't like the "F" word, or to stop being depressed because Christians should never be depressed - they have Jesus and everything should always be perfect, right?